i'm desperate for You

Its amazing what it takes to see our desperate need for Christ. Before I met my fiance, I told God I wanted to become completely dependent on Him. For the first time in a really really long time, I was not only content, but excited about being single. When I consciously placed Christ as my first love at the center of everything I did, my relationship with Him started growing wildly!

I was ecstatic, but then became confused. God brought Justin into my life. Knowing how I was with relationships, I was afraid that I would try to find my completeness in Justin. Through some really tough situations, I've learned that I need Christ more desperately. I've always heard keep Christ at the center of your relationship, but now I'm seeing results of doing so. He is constantly answering my prayers and is on top of it in ways that blow my mind.

He is so faithful, and even though He has brought the love of my life into my world, it has grown my love for Him even more. God's working through my life a lot. I'm a very opinionated person and my first instinct is to do whatever it takes to get MY opinion across.

My mother wisely advised me that the hardest thing to do is to not yell, but pour water on the fire. She's very right. God's given me a spirit of patience and grace and gentleness that, in my own power, would never happen. I hate that its taken this long and for a relationship to bring me to this point, this sometimes very painful point, in my life. I've learned that two people cannot work unless Christ is at the center. Even then it is a daily battle.

So whoever reads this, please pray for me! Pray that even when I don't feel like it, that I will bring only unconditional love into my relationship with Justin. Thank you :)

gotta love that man

My wonderful FDH has a way of making me sometimes think what the crap are you smoking? This evening I was talking on the phone with him and he was all excited because he found what he is going to give me as my wedding gift.

I assumed his excitement was a reflection of what mine would be. Never assume. He told me he is going to get me a Mallard [duck] wine holder. You're kidding right? No no...not at all. The convo went something like this

Me: "Honey, is this gift for me or you?"
FDH: "It's for you!"
"Just so you know, I'm not going to have a country kitchen so its not going to go"
"Yes it will"
"No, it can go in your 'man room'"
"I think you will like it"
...

Lol he's so cute when he's excited and wont take "no" for an answer. Siiiiigh. I will win this battle...

FYI: FDH is obsessed with duck hunting. Here in lies the reason for the fowl holder.