i'm desperate for You

Its amazing what it takes to see our desperate need for Christ. Before I met my fiance, I told God I wanted to become completely dependent on Him. For the first time in a really really long time, I was not only content, but excited about being single. When I consciously placed Christ as my first love at the center of everything I did, my relationship with Him started growing wildly!

I was ecstatic, but then became confused. God brought Justin into my life. Knowing how I was with relationships, I was afraid that I would try to find my completeness in Justin. Through some really tough situations, I've learned that I need Christ more desperately. I've always heard keep Christ at the center of your relationship, but now I'm seeing results of doing so. He is constantly answering my prayers and is on top of it in ways that blow my mind.

He is so faithful, and even though He has brought the love of my life into my world, it has grown my love for Him even more. God's working through my life a lot. I'm a very opinionated person and my first instinct is to do whatever it takes to get MY opinion across.

My mother wisely advised me that the hardest thing to do is to not yell, but pour water on the fire. She's very right. God's given me a spirit of patience and grace and gentleness that, in my own power, would never happen. I hate that its taken this long and for a relationship to bring me to this point, this sometimes very painful point, in my life. I've learned that two people cannot work unless Christ is at the center. Even then it is a daily battle.

So whoever reads this, please pray for me! Pray that even when I don't feel like it, that I will bring only unconditional love into my relationship with Justin. Thank you :)