may i scream now please

Ok time to vent. Its getting really old being in school. Moving back home was the worst best thing I could do for myself. Yeah it means I dont have to work and can concentrate on school, but I need my own space desperately. [ my room is next to my parents' for God's sake! ]

Its weird. I've lived in this house since I was about 6, minus the 3 years I was out on my own, and the longer I stay here, the less it feels like my home. I know how I like to live and do things, but until I'm done with school, I'm stuck living in someone else's house. I loathe the fact that I can't support myself right now.

I also hate being away from FDH. Night time is the worst. It seems like that's always when you are forced to reflect on what's missing in your life. During the day I can occupy my mind with things I have to do, but it gets to be that time of night, I'm tired and can't suppress the lonliness.

No, it's not like I'm without a place to live or a car or even loving family. It's just not the same. This is very personal, but I'm tired of keeping it to myself. I always feel a little better after I write how I feel...